You

You’ve never amounted to anything. At least that’s how you feel. Whenever someone asks you what you do, like when you’re at a party, you mumble about some half finished projects until the person politely happens to spot a friend on the other side of the room.

At least that’s how you feel it happens. Maybe if you had more self confidence you could impress upon people your hidden depths. Maybe if you had some depths to hide you’d feel more confident. Maybe if you believed in yourself more. But what’s left to believe in? You’ve long since given up your dream of becoming famous. Or successful. And you’ve all but forgotten your childish fantasies of being spotted for your looks. Until one day you are. You’re just walking down the street when a model agent picks you out in a crowd of thousands –

LOL. That doesn’t actually happen. You find it hard to live in reality anymore. You feel an acute pressure around your chest when you live in reality for too long, so most of your time is spent trying to escape it. With some help of course; drink, drugs, Friends . And it works. Most of the time. The times it doesn’t are when you descend into an all-encompassing malaise about your current situation. Why me? You ask. And indeed it seems a reasonable question. Why do you have to carry this burden, forever weighing you down. Down so much lower than everyone else. Down to hidden depths (lol). But you know everyone experiences ups and downs (at least you tell yourself you know) and that making a martyr of yourself, for yourself, will do nobody any good. Especially not you.

So for the most part you get on with your life. And at some point you realise that it’s not all bad. And that if you stop focusing on what you’re supposed to be you can sometimes enjoy being who you actually are.

And then you probably live happily ever after.

How should I know?

I’m not you.